My ex who I haven't seen in at least 4 months came to my place last night. It was actually really good to see him and just have a conversation that we could smile and laugh with each other, he looked good and I think I might kinda miss him... okay well that was a lie, I do miss him!
As much I had my mind set to hes just gonna sit there and not do anything that didn't really happen, I swear the whole time we were talking he just kept moving closer and closer to me.
I guess the part I got confused about was that he tells me he misses me and we hooked up that night but when he left he told me he doesn't regret it but no one can know about what happened. I don't think I can handle this whole thing of hooking up but then not having anything else, and I know hes not the kind of guy to "tap and gap" so I honestly don't know what to say,
Do I seem like the kind of girl that want to have this secret thing with a guy?
My head is trying to tell me to end things with him. But my heart...
...my heart is just waiting for the chance that my head might...reconsider
